My Journey My Reflections

I had a major setback and one I was not even thinking I would ever have. I was at a store shopping with my daughter Sam. She loves Funko Pops and is a great collector. I was struck by a cart from an employee, and he just walked away and went in the back. This employee just left me there. I jerked back and when I did something popped in my left shoulder. Oh, boy it hurt bad. For six months this injury was killing, could not sleep, driving was difficult, and even getting dressed was complicated. I was in constant pain all day long all because an employee was not paying attention and the way it was handled was awful. I was ignored for reasons, some known and unknown. This injury took time away from my life, my children, and it was unfair. I had to cancel vacations and events. This time could not be repaid. These moments were stollen from me. There were no apologies and no nothing for my pain and suffering. I stayed strong–did physical therapy, meditation, and listening to classical music, I searched and searched on YouTube for answers to have this injury get better. I had all the imaging tests done and it was looking like surgery was going to be needed. Then I followed a routine for months. Finally, I started to feel better. Not completely healed, but definitely. I am able to sleep better and less pain during the day. A long journey it was but near the end. I always reflect on things in my life. This is one of those moments. Sometimes things happen and you have to deal with it. I had to stay strong and keep moving forward in baby steps. I have had a lot of tough moments in my life, and this was only temporary. The other experiences in my life were longer than six months. I try not to compare tough challenging moments for the simple fact is every moment that happens is not only defined by the experience itself, but by how it is coped with and the outcome. I really try not to linger too long on anything, I vent, journal about it, find three solutions, and apply those solutions. I found writing as my biggest contribution and it was something I discovered at 7 years old while in foster care. This journey led to me writing poetry and published books. If I counted all the roadblock that stood in front of me from the time I entered this world, I would have lost count. Hope is was what keeps me going. Now instead I reflect on the challenges but count the accomplishments!!